Devastating News

I went to my ob gyn doctor last Thursday for my yearly exam. I expressed my concerns about not receiving my period for the last 7 months since my last chemo treatment. The doctor had prescribed me Provera to help jump start my system. I had called my oncology doctor and he is out of town this week. I have decided to hold off until I can run it by him first. I also had a blood test and was supposed to get my results back today. I hadn't heard back from my doctor so I called around lunch time for an update. My doctor called me while I was hold with the receptionist in her office. The news came back not good! She told me that I was pre menopausal and it was because of the chemotherapy. She told me that my hormone levels were good however the damage has been done to my egg supply. That is why I haven't been receiving my periods monthly. I was absolutely devastated to hear this news. My childhood dream came to a screeching halt. She told me the medication she had prescribed will probably not work but I could still try it. She recommended I go and see a fertility specialist and she if they could run some more detailed tests. She is limited with her test results and thinks they may be able to see if they can give me better answers about my current health. I was really hoping to be able to have more children at least once more if possible. Please pray for me that I will hopefully be able to have more children. The doctor didn't say it was impossible but not too likely given my current circumstances. I'm very grateful for my daughter and grateful the cancer is gone. I just wish that it wouldn't cause me to go into menopause at the tender age if 33 years old. I will keep you posted!

A Day in the Park

Ten for the Week

1. Frankie graduated from 8th grade and we attended the graduation ceremony. I made a mistake on what day the graduation was on and had to quickly rearrange our schedules to make it there on time.

2. I have three more Herception treatments to go and than I will be finished with everything. I'm really looking forward to August 6th. It has been a very long year but I am very happy that I am cancer free and can move on with my life. I look forward to many more good times with my family in 2010.

3. Frankie has been grounded to the house for the past 3 weeks. It was a very long punishment and he is now finally free to go outside and play. This is the best news all week!

4 . I discovered that Savannah really enjoys watching the Mickey Mouse playhouse on Saturday mornings. It is a nice little break for me while I get the house cleaning finished.

5. I recently purchased a forward facing car seat for both cars and a new high chair. Savannah seems to be enjoying her new "toys".

6. The kids went to youth conference this week up in Wisconsin. It is a wilderness youth conference. The kids are hiking, mountain biking, rock climbing, canoeing and repelling. They will return home this evening from all there adventures.

7. Sarah started taking private lessons for driving. She is helping us babysit Savannah during the summer months in return for learning how to drive. She is getting her learners permit on Monday. I'm very afraid to have a new driver in our house.

8. We all went swimming at the pool last weekend and I took Savannah into the hot tub where she had so much fun. She is definately a water baby and is not afraid of the water.

9. Savannah took a few baby steps all by herself last week and is now using a sippy cup. I weened her off of the bottle however she doesn't seem to drink as much milk with the sippy cup so I went back to the bottle just part time.

10. Happy Father's Day to all the hard working men in our lives. We love you and appreciate all that you do for us.

My New Favorite Toy

Graduation Day